Wants and Dreams

I've been thinking a lot recently about what I want in life. I've realized that while I don't have a real future mapped out for myself or anything along the lines of that, there's still much that I want to try, to learn, to accomplish, to feel, to make, etc. Ready to hear this long list? Err, I mean see...ready to see this long list?

What I want/dream of for myself:

- Confidence, to believe in who I am

- Independence, to do things on my own without having someone by my side every second

- To feel every emotion that I can, not just happiness and sadness

- To look back on all the fun times I've had and be able to smile instead of crying my eyes out

- To have no regrets or very few if I do at all

- To accept the gift that was given to me and understand that it is mine now (thanks to a few special people, I'm well on my way to fully accepting it)

- To be more understanding of others and be able to understand them a little better

- To be less of a socially awkward person

- To continue to be a creeper, because it's what I'm best at

- To never stop loving 

- To remember all that I can

- To appreciate the people around me more

- To live a life full of happiness and joy, sadness and hurt, anger and annoyance, disappointment, curiosity, pain, and above all, love.

What I want/dream of for my friends:

- A future that satisfies them

- To experience and feel all emotions on their own and not through others

- To understand that life and people are precious

- To let them know that I wouldn't be who I am without each and every one of them

What I want to do/dream of doing: 

- To learn how to drive (yes, I can't drive)

- To learn how to ride a bike (yes, I don't know how to ride a bike)

- To learn how to swim (yeah, I don't know how to do anything, haha)

- To ride on a plane again

- To go sledding with Matthew, Paul, and Elizabeth 

- To have a snowball fight with a group of friends

- To go to New York with Matthew, Paul, and Elizabeth like we planned to

- To go to an anime convention (with Alley, Taylor, Lauren, Kasey, Haley, and Tianhui; not all at once of course...but that would be fun!)

- To cosplay (just once in my life)

- To beat Anh in one round of DDR (this might just remain a dream, haha)

- To hang out with Casey and Deepak (Tomy) every now and then (it will happen, it must...please?) 

- To have an anatomy group reunion 

- To write handwritten letters to a friend (I promise that I'll do this)

- To watch The Grudge with Brittany and Gee (this will be interesting) 

- To go out for cheesecake with Allie

- To go on long walks with friends and hold hands

- To talk on the phone with a friend for hours and hours

- To "dance" in the rain

- To have a cheesy typical romance moment occur (just once!)

This is all that I can think of at the moment, there will be more to come later. I realize that a lot of what I want to do/dream of doing involves the here and now. I'm sure it'll change as time passes, but I like my lists for now. I didn't include anything about my family in this one because I felt like I needed to dedicate this more towards myself and my friends.

I decided that I don't like this anymore. Too sappy, even for me. But I'll keep it here anyway because it is the honest truth. These are things that I want to do or dream of doing. Still, I need to write about something that's not sappy for a change. Maybe my hatred of Day 1s? Too weak? I'll think of something...

I'm silly, that's all.