Today is Monday, May 27th, 2013. I decorated my cap just recently; hastily and shakily, I wrote out 'SU' in white and blue. In less than two weeks, it will be Saturday, June 8th, 2013. And I will silently be saying 'see you later' in my head to every person I've come to know and love at Sherando, past and present, whether they are a student or a teacher. Hugs will be given, many I love you's will be said, a multitude of phone number exchanges will be made, and numerous pictures will be taken.
At last year's graduation, the graduation of the Class of 2012, I made a promise to myself to not be sad when my turn comes. Maybe I'll break that promise without meaning to or wanting to, but I think it will be okay. Graduating from high school doesn't mean that my life is over. It just means that a chapter of my life is coming to a close. And hopefully, there will be many more chapters to come.
I'm fortunate enough to have had a pretty good time at Sherando in an overall sense. Not everyone feels the way I do, and rightfully so; to each their own. Freshman year was a long time ago, and so much has happened since then. I've made new friends, done things I never thought I'd do. I've become someone I didn't know I'd be. And some days, I really like who I am, because I've surrounded myself with some pretty remarkable people. I'm not exactly ready to let go yet, but when we throw our caps into the air, I know I will be. I think I might even sprout wings and fly away.
I don't think it's goodbye forever. I'm going to do my best to keep in touch with my closest friends. If I'm not too lazy, I'll arrange care packages and write letters. I'll call them on the phone, text constantly, and bombard them with emails. I'll video chat with them and we'll make plans to hang out for when they come home. I know I sound overly optimistic, but I won't lose them so easily. I've always heard that you meet your real friends in college, but I don't believe that. I don't believe that there is a time and place where you meet your real friends. I have real friends right here and right now. I know that I won't always have the friends that I have now so I promise that if I lose any of them over time, I will look back and smile because I had them in my life.
It's all just really bittersweet. I think that's the best word to describe how I feel about everything.
(I'm sure that I'll look back on this post one day and call myself an idiot for trying to be so positive, but what can I say? I'm gonna miss my high school days, but I don't wanna wish for them back.)
What I was listening to as I wrote this post: http://www.mediafire.com/listen/e0q7qpjx0i0bbgu/Top_Emotional_OSTs_Of_All_Times_Color_the_Sky.mp3
EDIT: It was a good ride. I don't wish for my high school days back. I'm content with life as a college freshman.
